Unread Literature

I haven't been feeling well for the past month. And no, this isn't just an emotional kind of thing. It's about my health. I've been getting some kind of illness, one after the other. It's a bad year for me isn't it?

Anyways. My summer is quite boring. I've already graduated high school about a month ago. It still hasn't quite sunk in. Haven't gone out with my friends, I don't work (except doing small errands for my parents), I just eat, sleep and use the computer. What a sad life! :O

Anyways, I have too much pent up frustration and I'm trying to revive my LJ and use it to vent my emotions. Wow. But, I'm not used to spilling everything. Every single emotion I'm feeling right now. D: I have too much problems, things that I'm told to not think about and such. D: But I can't.

I have friends, best friends at that. But why do I feel like I'm not part of them at all? They talk to each other all the time, but, nothing reaches me at all. Why do I feel like I'm always the one trying to reach them instead of them actually wanting to talk to me? Am I such a boring person? Is there something wrong with me? Am I just a bad influence? A third, fourth, fifth wheel? I've never actually felt like they even tried to understand me.

Maybe it really is better to always have another set of friends. *sighs*